the new moon in january
is not visible
yet
in the early dawn before light
a muted white band
then deep orange .. pulls me out
the only person in sight
on seven miles of beach
alone
yet connected to all
a healing so deep there are not
the words for it
nature
the sun sucked up from the ocean
into the sky
the base of a scallop shell
then freed
sometimes i feel more truth
reading fiction than fact
in another lifetime i was surely
a native healer living in untouched beauty
community
i yearn to go back there
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yesterday
on the sixth floor of a condo
as the sun rose from the ocean
a woman in old orchard beach
is using a treadmill
in a screened in porch
i see her up there
arms swinging, legs zip zip zip
i'm walking the beach
putting shells in my mitten
as i did when a child
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betrayal
it's a big word, yes
but it's 'my' feeling
nobody has to take it on
unless it fits
my art is my true work
don't confuse it
with the ego of a gallery
only in the dark nite
can illusions be smashed
god
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images of my big plywood paintings
being launched
set free
like notes in bottles
fading prayers
drifting
coded
turtle. deer. owl. seahorse
onto a foreign shore
the world
there are secrets i can only share
with my younger daughter
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my mind dervished all week long
around the thought
of nyc outsider art fair
a daisy petal picked off
go, don't go, go. don't go
spinning so fast
i lost my body
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way back
on the island
before the deer were shot
i would step
reverently
up to the young antlered buck
look into his eyes and thank him for his photo
at sunset as energies flickered
i would commune with the big old buck
hill to hill with water in between
trust
those days are gone
but live inside me
now 'out there'
there's the 25 quota
feed them, bait them in
pop them in the head
bang. bang.bang.
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early the other morning
in my dream
i was at my grandmother's house
calling my daughter to come outside
the sky was dark
great rainbowed rays of energy
shot down to the ground like trails from
falling stars